Hey you,

Every night just a little bit more …

Comes the feeling of tiredness…

The wanting, to fall asleep and never wake up again.

Every day the realisation hits me.

The feeling of loneliness.

I give so much love , effort , to everyone.

But still I’m not happy.

At least you are.

The people who I think care, do not care.

The one I think takes care, won’t.

And everything stays as it is.

I try and try, but day after day , I feel the darkness more.

Love turns into hate.

Expections not met creates desgust.

And everything in life keeps on going.

I’m not important.

I’m not really here.

I’m just a ghost of who I used to be, trapped in the prison of her own mind.

And you don’t even see , you don’t even notice, you go on, …

So move on , go on , be happy,…

You won’t even notice when I’m gone.

Even now when you lay next to me you sleep.

Not noticing what I want to do, what eventually I might do.

Stay strong my head whispers,

My heart laughs, empty , no more tears left

Soon I will not break, but shatter

And then , I too can lay my head to rest

Love always,

Kimmy