Hey you,
Every night just a little bit more …
Comes the feeling of tiredness…
The wanting, to fall asleep and never wake up again.
Every day the realisation hits me.
The feeling of loneliness.
I give so much love , effort , to everyone.
But still I’m not happy.
At least you are.
The people who I think care, do not care.
The one I think takes care, won’t.
And everything stays as it is.
I try and try, but day after day , I feel the darkness more.
Love turns into hate.
Expections not met creates desgust.
And everything in life keeps on going.
I’m not important.
I’m not really here.
I’m just a ghost of who I used to be, trapped in the prison of her own mind.
And you don’t even see , you don’t even notice, you go on, …
So move on , go on , be happy,…
You won’t even notice when I’m gone.
Even now when you lay next to me you sleep.
Not noticing what I want to do, what eventually I might do.
Stay strong my head whispers,
My heart laughs, empty , no more tears left
Soon I will not break, but shatter
And then , I too can lay my head to rest
Love always,
Kimmy
Walking on darknes
Not seeing the light
Still walking in darkness
While it is bright outside
Looking great when thinking with mind
But the darkness is of a differend kind
From deep within
It makes my soul so thin
I chould take care of me first
But than my soul could die from hunger and thirst
So afraid of being alone
It hurts
It hurts
I can fiel it in every bone
It makes me numb
Don’t feel outside
But want to with all my might
Kimmy
We love you
Want you need you
To be in our lives
You are one of the core reasons of my existence
Love you with all my hart
Dad