Every night just a little bit more …
Comes the feeling of tiredness…
The wanting, to fall asleep and never wake up again.
Every day the realisation hits me.
The feeling of loneliness.
I give so much love , effort , to everyone.
But still I’m not happy.
At least you are.
The people who I think care, do not care.
The one I think takes care, won’t.
And everything stays as it is.
I try and try, but day after day , I feel the darkness more.
Love turns into hate.
not met creates desgust.
And everything in life keeps on going.
I’m not important.
I’m not really here.
I’m just a ghost of who I used to be, trapped in the prison of her own mind.
And you don’t even see , you don’t even notice, you go on, …
So move on , go on , be happy,…
You won’t even notice when I’m gone.
Even now when you lay next to me you sleep.
Not noticing what I want to do, what eventually I might do.
Stay strong my head whispers,
My heart laughs, empty , no more tears left
Soon I will not break, but shatter
And then , I too can lay my head to rest