Kimmy's road

Kimmy's road

My personal journey from being human to the being the best human I can be...

The shared loneliness.

Hey you, I, for myself, hate it to be totally on my own for a long period of time. It makes me feel anxious and it seems to me like time and space are standing still and that in itself is an impossiblity that my mind can’t cope with. When I’m alone I can’t rely on my own vault in my mind because then is when my fears return and I start breaking down the walls of my vault that keep me standing tall. These walls have been there for a while and they stand there gazing and tall , not to keep de bad stuff locked away but to keep the good and hurtful stuff out. I’m very open when I meet someone and do tend to overshare my little bucket of missery. People tend to care but I do this so that people know , that when they talk about their feelings I know how it feels. And I know it because I feel their pain as much as it where my own. Not because of a bad memorie but because I care to much. I want to be everybodies friend, everyones lover and everyones “rock in rough water”, because I don’t want to feel their pain and I want to help that person feel better , because in doing that, I feel a better person myself. Meeting people and talking to people , being very open about myself, creates the illusion that they care. That I am … Read more